Done a 360.. atleast read the last paragraph :) lol

So, after last week when i posted about having such a hard time it was it just completely changed for me..Wednesday i woke up at around 8:20 to get up and get ready for work so before i rolled out of bed i actually checked my phone and had a text from my boss saying i didnt have to come in for the next couple days since we havent been that busy.. HALLELUJAH! I mean that means no pay but i needed some days off.. So i spent the whole day with mom completely redoing my closet.. man it was a bigger job than i thought.. But i LOVE the way we have it now :)

Then thursday, i got to sleep in a little than just got up and finished cleaning my room and putting clothes hung up..then it was time to get ready for Ider's homecoming parade!! If you didnt know my bestfriend got 11th grade attendant.. YAY Kacy!! :) I was so happy for her.. & the parade was alot of fun.. Kacy kept throwing out wrappers because me and slick would eat the candy then put the wrappers back in the bowl...Lol :) then we headed over to the community pep rally then eat at Don Chico's and then i went and spent the night with Kacy :)

& Friday was the big day! it felt like Kacy was getting married not just in homecoming.. All day long we were getting her ready.. Then had to stop in the middle of getting ready and head over to the school for the pep rally.. which was hilarious.. haha then leave again and RE-DO her hair again. because it had fell then finally by 6 40 we were at the school gym to start pictures.. yes one hour and twenty minutes before the game ever started!! so from 6 40 til almost 9 we sat in the gym doing absolutely nothing.. except talk and listen to the game every now and then.. it was pretty awful lol.. then finally it was half time so we got our cameras out and i was ready to watch kacy like fall walking across the field or something (but she didnt, darn.) She actually looked graceful lol.. then they crowned queen and we headed back to the gym to help her take her dress off and then me tiff & about 5 guys loaded up and went rolling yards.. Well the boys did.. me and tiff just stayed in the car mainly because i didnt know the people and tiff was the driver if we got caught..and i must say those boys were ABSOLUTELY HILARIOUS!! they made my night! (: and it was like 1 30 before we got back to kacys then we went like straight to bed because we were all pooped.. then saturday me and kacy woke up and just hung out the whole day and talked then i went home got ready for church, went for like one hour me tiff and kennedy left went to trenton back to tiffs... then the BARN OF TERROR.. ahh it was lame but i had a good time.. We had 5 people in our group and since they only let 4 in at a time i ended up walking in with Tyler Vann(Vann fan!!!!) Kasey Nash, & Dillon Smith.. and i must say they got me a couple times..it wouldnt have been as fun if we didnt have them.. lol and Sunday was a pretty boring day until Sunday night after church...

I ended up going to Rafeals with a few people and we played bubblegum & double double this in the parking lot.. yeah it was pretty oldschool.. lol but Here's my favorite part...

So on my way home i was listening to my Ipod (wounded solider i believe) & i was just kinda battling in my mind with something so i started praying just asking the Lord to help me with it and send me what i need and just take my mind off of what i was battling with. So i asked the Lord that if he was gonna send me this certain thing to let me see a deer that night before i got home.. (& i was at the railroad tracks, about 3 minutes from my house) So i started reallly praying hard not just in my mind i was praying out loud just asking God to please take my mind off of whats been bothering me and send me whats better.. So i turned on my road and slowed down cause i knew if i wanted to see this deer that the lord was gonna show me i didnt need to be going 60 MPH. So im praying all the way down my road (my road is 0.8 of a mile long and i live at the end.) and as im almost home the devil tells me to just stop praying because im not gonna see this deer.. so i listened to that for a sec then i was like "NO! I KNOW THE LORD CAN DO THIS FOR ME!" So right before i got to my house i topped the hill and there it was a deer standing in the left side of a ditch.. It jumps up just high enough to where i can see it and it looks at me and goes back down in the ditch.. I immediately put my hand over my mouth and started laughing/crying at the same time because not only did God let that happen it also meant he heard my prayer.. And i was so happy it automatically just like lifted that discouragement off of me... and i pulled in my driveway with tearss of joy running down my face then parked my car just sat there laughing and drying my eyes cause i didnt want mom to know i had been crying lol..But it definitely was just what i really needed and i woke up this morning with a better attitude about things and just am happy i have another testimony and something else to stand on that God done for me :)

Well, i believe that is all i really wanna share right now.. if you didnt read the whole thing i alteast hope you read the last paragraph lol..

Love,

The Girl Who Was Happy Just To See A Deer <3

Well didnt have the best day ever.. it involved crying at work,getting bit at work, and just feeling like crap.. But there was two things that made me a little happy... 1. When i walked in the break room and seen CHOCOLATE CREME FILLED KRISPY KREME DOUGHNUTS!!! Ahhhh<3 & 2. when i was sitting at the stop sign in kimball waiting forever on this white van to go so that i can, and when it finally passes by up in the top corner of the van it said "Casper" It made me giggle.. & Made me think about my Cabbage/Boo..& i kinda started to miss him.. (Like i didnt already) But i will just go ahead and fill you in on why seeing Casper made me giggle..Well ya see, i had this boyfriend last year and we were talking and He called me Casper for some reason and i was like why did you just call me that? He said "Because you got that ghost inside of you"(holyghost) So after that he always called me Casper, and then his dog had puppies and the one that he kept he named Casper... And around the same time my dog had puppies.. So he named his Casper i named mine boo :) cute right? :) & to this day he will still call me Casper... but its okay cause i like it:)

Anyways.... maybe this week will eventually get better..

Love,

Casper<3

A year already?

October 2, 2010.. a day that would later make a huge impact on my life.. Thinking about this day in time a year ago. it seems like yesterday, i woke up went to chatt to buy me a camera and go eat at ichibon then headed to my Rylees 3rd birthday party, then back to lorans until church time, church, then back at lorans.. and headed to pick up zak and head to the barn of terror with a few more stops along the way.. anddd long story short that was the night he ask me to be his girlfriend. I cannot hardly believe it would have been a year today. time flies so fast! But thank goodness The Lord got me out of that mess.. :) Now i seen him out and its like i almost forget i spent almost 9 months of my life wasting time on him. & its like nothing ever happened, which is fine with me. I tell people Zak wasnt a relationship, he was a lesson. Because i think it was.. A lesson that taught be to be careful who you trust and who you call your "bestfriends." But the only important thing is that i learn from that lesson. & i do believe i did.. & i cant believe im actually blogging about this right now, makes it sound like i actually care. HA! What i really cant get over is it just doesnt seem like a year since it all started.. Like somebody testified at church about how its been 2 years since something happened to them and looked at mom and I was like "2 YEARS???" i could have promised you it was just like one year ago.. Man time just gets away from us.. Not to mention i just turned 17! yes sweet 17 :) i can hardly believe that either.. I remember when i was younger mom would go tell me to clean her car out and the whole time i would pretend i was driving and being all cool listening to the radio (hahaha) & now its been 1 year since i have been legal to drive! this is just crazy. But back to the birthday...I did have a pretty good birthday :) i spent pretty much the whole day with mom, then when she left for work i went to Kacys and waited on her to get ready then we went to oak grove. & we heard some really good things. :) I just really needed a day out, i dont wanna start complaining because i know if i just stop and look around people have it ALOT worse than i do.. but im just really tired of drama. Why cant i be friends with the people that i wanna be friends with without it making someone else mad.. im sick and tired of losing friends over stupid crap that you really need to grow up about! So from now on im gonna do what makes me happy not what makes my friends happy.. because its my life and i dont need to let other peoples problems ruin my happiness.. When they are just gonna treat me like crap in the end when i do whats right for me. I was tired of the arguing and the fighting so i handled it like i should have a long time ago. Ugh i hate being in the middle of stuff.. its ridiculous. as if i felt like my world wasnt crashing down enough already i have to go and upset a friend (even though i was doing the right thing) & just brings me down lower and lower. But God knows all about it and whats best for me.. & i cant begin to thank him for every single thing that was read at Nila last night.. i needed to hear every bit of it.. I felt like Brother Ray was just reading my mind and knew every bit of my problems. at one point i was trying to think of a phrase that somebody said at oak grove one night, and he said the exact quote that i was trying to think of right before he said it!!!!! (it was.."quitting is not an option") and he talked about how sometimes you can be in a situation where if you do one thing it makes one person mad and if you do another it makes the other mad... and i was just sitting there in amazement because it was like everything he was saying was for me.. and i left there with a better mind about things. & i didnt have to get up and shout all over the floor to do it either.. actually we didnt even get to testify.. i just heard what i REALLY needed to hear.. So thanks Tristan for thinking of me :) & Maybe i can just hold on to what all they said and make it through this week without a breakdown of some sort. Cause i just feel like i have had a huge load on me with all this and i just dont know what to do.. seems like anything i do it upsets somebody. So prayers would be greatly appreciated! well i think i am finally running out of things to say..so i guess thats all for now..

LoVe,

Whitney <3